Monday, June 05, 2006

went to training today. revisited many things, woken up by the bells of resonance.

paul told me stuff that i'd never expect would come out from him; but then again i get his surprises once in a blue moon. had it become a case of wrong perspective?

maybe i took things lightly. i liked what i read, but took it all with a pinch of salt. perhaps deep within dwells mystic thoughts of the unknown anger, weariness and pain; coming from all sides unprepared.
i still remember cammie's nickname. it was a jumbled up sentence:

ouy tacn ese hte sipn

at least it was something like that. turns out:

you cant see the pain.

blind bernard. i'd waited for the break to relive what i've felt before: the joy and love of a simpler time, without the outside frustrations. but it all breaks down, turning out in the flat opposite direction.

there and then i was pained.
confused.

well and i do see something now.
something telling me to ditch the burdens of now,
find release,
and only when, i would be comforted.

pooh's hurting.